lucy says "ten more minutes, please".

there are only 2 types of people in the world. and by world, i mean the little mini-world that i inhabit, which is the only world i know. those people are the people who bail on me and the people i take care of. some people are in both categories. i guess that means there are three types of people. in any case, is it any wonder that i hate the world?

fuck you, world. yea, that's right. i said fuck you. and i don't feel sorry or guilty about it. i probably will later, but i don't right now. so there.

I did not lose myself all at once. I rubbed out my face over the years washing away my pain, the same way carvings on stone are worn down by water.

-Amy Tan

lucy "helps" with the laundry....

hair today, gone tomorrow...

st baldrick's was friday. it was a great and overwhelming experience. there were lots of people. lots of new people. lots of noise, lots of things going on. lots of excitement. it was kind of a stimulus overload for me. i'm really glad i participated tho. i am really proud of how well our team did (over $36,000 raised, 9 bald heads, and 22 inches of hair donated -- wow!), and how brave everyone on the team who shaved their heads are. people have really cute heads! who knew? it was a little disappointing that people who were supposed to show up either didn't or bailed early. but, what can you do? see previous post re: people sucking.

i am also relieved to be rid of my hair. i donated two ponytails of 11 inches each. lol, it feels a little like missing a body part sometimes. i'd developed this habit when i don't know what to do with my hands where i stand with my hands behind my back and tug on or play with the ends of my hair. now when i reach back, there's nothing there. i wonder what replacement fidgety behavior i'll come up with.

yesterday, i spent 3 hours at mario tricoci. i got a facial, which was awesome. then i got my hair cut. someone else washed my hair for me for the first time in over 2 years! it was heavenly. i love the lady who did my hair. she didn't really cut much -- she kept the length the same, but added some layers. however, she did a fantabulous job styling my hair. my curls have never, ever looked so good. i will be returning to her for sure. then, either because it came with the facial or because i was a new customer, i got a free makeup consultation. so basically, i got a makeover yesterday, lol. it was nice. on my way home from the salon, i think i decided that i prefer people i pay to do things for me so much better than all other people. they do what i want, and make me look pretty and feel good. what's not to love?

for anna, who doesnt believe in the "if you dont have anything nice to say" principle

life sucks. life sucks because people suck. my friends say it will get better. i don't believe them, but i love them for saying it anyway. someday, they'll probably have a chance to say "i told you so", but not any time soon.

there's nothing worth saying; there's nothing to say that matters. nothing's changed.

i need to be friends with jemaine!

for realz

When we remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained.
- Mark Twain