retail therapy is good!

i used my last pair of contacts the last time i had pink eye. getting pink eye twice in the course of a month made me a little paranoid, and i havent worn contacts since. but enough time has passed so that my paranoia has dissipated, so i stopped by america's best to pick up some new ones.

while i was there, i impulsively decided i would get new glasses too. not cuz i really need them (especially with new contacts), and without considering the cost or how it would figure into my budget. i felt crappy, i wanted, so i got, and i felt momentarily better. 100% retail therapy purchase. BUT this is the first time i made a smart retail therapy purchase, lol. i mean, i dont wear my glasses a lot (except the last couple of weeks) but ive had them for years and the prescription is VERY old. im impressed how this worked out. usually i just buy random crap that is either useless, or that i end up hating and unclear on why i wanted it in the first place. or else it is just a completely frivolous, unjustifiable purchase. but this -- this is a completely justifiable purchase! way to go me! :)

love it

Feist - My Moon, My Man

music is my therapy. it absolutely can and absolutely does alter my mood, and the right song at the right time can bring clarity or insight to whatever i happen to be working through at that particular time. so, you can bet that whenever im working through stuff im going through, im listening to music constantly. often, i end up creating a playlist of songs that taps into a particular mood or feeling. sometimes, i get tired of the playlist (from listening to it constantly) or i may not be able to decide on a playlist at all (if im not particularly inspired or if im just that mixed up in the head). when that happens, i sometimes play this game with myself, where i put my ipod on shuffle and see if my ipod will depart some wisdom with the first couple songs it plays. well, this weekend i did that and it played "Anxiety" by the Black Eyed Peas (oh so totally on target) and "Hope" by Twista. interesting, huh?

addendum to my last post...

BEST THING EVER!!

last night i went to the movies with anna and her friends from work. we went to see License to Wed, which was full of the hot-nicity that is john krasinski. not the most amazing movie ever made, but thoroughly enjoyable! however, i have to admit that the funniest moment occurred even before the movie started, when the following commercial played and made me laugh so hard i almost choked on my popcorn!



by the way, this is not a reflection on how un-funny the movie was, but rather a reflection of how weird i am.

very amused...

apparently some guy tried to lie to get out of jury duty and could be in big trouble for it! im entertained by this - check out the article here.

but here's the best part of the article:

On a questionnaire that all potential jurors fill out, Ellis wrote that he didn’t like homosexuals and blacks. He then echoed those sentiments in an interview with Nickerson.

“You say on your form that you’re not a fan of homosexuals,” Nickerson said.

“That I’m a racist,” Ellis interrupted.

“I’m frequently found to be a liar, too. I can’t really help it,” Ellis added.

“I’m sorry?” Nickerson said.

“I said I’m frequently found to be a liar,” Ellis replied.

“So, are you lying to me now?” Nickerson asked.

“Well, I don’t know. I might be,” was the response.

Ellis then admitted he really didn’t want to serve on a jury.

“I have the distinct impression that you’re intentionally trying to avoid jury service,” Nickerson said.

“That’s true,” Ellis answered.

thank god i get to leave early today...

most of the time, i really dig my job. love my bosses, like or can tolerate most of my co-workers. dont mind most of the actual work i do, even when it gets monotonous, tedious, and boring. sometimes i even actually like the work im doing! like the pay and the hours....all in all i dont normally have a huge amount to complain about. im pretty patient and laid back -- its not hard to make me happy.

but there are moments here and there when i get so frustrated or pissed off here, i could just punch someone. today was a punching kind of day. usually i can let it go and deal right away, but today was bad. i had to take a 20 min break just to contain the cry/punch/puke reaction. in hindsight, that doesnt sound so bad...i sat in my cubicle and took deep breaths and rocked out on my ipod for 20 min. but, i dont like getting that close to losing my cool. i suppose if the whole interaction and process that got me so upset hadnt ended when it did (at the point where i was barely able to contain my tears or keep my hands from shaking), i couldve just said i was feeling frustrated and excused myself for a 5 min break to clear my head before coming back to it. i mean, frustration and challenges are bound to come up and the important thing is dealing with them professionally, maturely, and effectively. but i dont like admitting that i cant handle things, and it would feel kind of like that.

anyway, crisis averted. cry/punch/puke feelings mostly gone. heart rate normal. back to work...

well, i am kinda kooky i guess....

right now im harboring a mini-obsession with The Kooks. man, i need to marry a british rock star. or any rock star with a sexy accent! or just any rock star with a sexy guitar! hubba hubba!

The Kooks - Naive


The Kooks - Ooh La


The Kooks - You Don't Love Me

im so vain, i probably think this song's about me...

fortunately not true, or else i might have some self-esteem issues given the whoring, murdered cat in a long distance relationship thing...

Hey There Delilah, Plain White T's
(proud to say i was first, among people i know, to discover this song)


Delilah, Tom Jones
(oh yes, indeed. i am in fact subjecting you to this! hehe)


Delilah, The Cranberries
(love the accent)


Delilah, Queen
(took me awhile to figure out this was about a cat)

Feist, I Feel It All

for me, this is one of those songs that leaves you feeling like the songwriter has the power to look into the corners of your heart and mind - even those corners you try not to let anyone else see and that sometimes you try to forget are there too. its kinda like someone holding up a mirror for you.

i was surprised by the ah-ha feeling i got from this song. it makes me think about how strongly inclined people are to believe their experiences, thoughts, feelings, etc are unique. despite all evidence to the contrary, despite logic and reason, we seem predisposed to feel like no one else has experienced what we have (or at least not the same way we have) or that no one else feels the way we do. and its just not true; all you have to do to see that is read a book, listen to a song, look at a painting, or listen to a friend. i think that on some level we all know this -- that others have hurt, been broken hearted, lost, struggled, etc. but for some reason, in the space and time of those moments/thoughts/feelings, it just doesnt feel that way.

people are weird.

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